God Speaks

It is amazing how God speaks to us. He sends us messages through scripture if we only will listen and commit to meditating on his word.

Throughout the past few years, I have heard the same message in my mind from God. “Be patient. Let him be. He will see.”

I asked God over and over again to take away the wrath that I was going through. In August of 2017, on a plane, flying back from Nashville, I heard and clear and resounding “NO”. It was disconcerting to hear that no from him. I didn’t understand it. I had done everything my parents and asked of me, gotten a good job, left the house and Started my career early. Found a man, got married. I was faithful. I was loyal-gave him everything I had. Money, love, my time, my intellect. Despite that, I was not good enough.

Why, when I had tried to make it work, was God going to let me struggle? It made no sense.

However, God has told me over and over – be patient. Don’t let them change you. Let me be the one to make the way. You don’t understand.

This morning, I read a devotional about Lot’s wife. The woman who turned to a pillar of salt when she looked back at the burning Sodom. God had given specific instructions to not look back. He was rescuing the family from this place and he didn’t want them to have one foot in both places. He wanted them to be completely devoted to him. Sodom was a place Wroght with greed and lust. I can’t resist making comparisons to the world we are living in today.

Lot’s wife looked back-she didn’t want to lose the life she had and then she lost it. But Lot wasn’t innocent. What I find amazing is that the VERY day that I read that devotional in the morning, I received a book, from my church, written by a Catholic Bishop, who talked about the SAME story!

Can you believe it? This cannot be coincidental. God must want me to get a message here. In the book, he talks about how lot offered up his daughters to protect the three angels from being raped by the men of Sodom. Not really a good choice to make.

God’s purpose is completely opposite of this. And the Bible shows this because the angels came and struck those men from Sodom blind.

My point here is this-both of the spots in which I read this message were read in either a book or a devotional by a catholic bishop or Deacon. The very church that I left for almost 15 years due to the very idea of sexual immorality. However, the church is willing to admit it’s wrongdoings and work to fix them.

I ask this question of myself and others: are we willing to admit our own mistakes, repent, turn to God, and never look back?