Heartbroken

Recent events have left me heartbroken. Confused.

The Bible told me certain things that don’t seem to be happening on my timetable. After talks with a very kind man, who died in 2014, I came to believe in the following:

“Trust in The Lord with all your heart, with all your soul, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways-acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths”-Proverbs 3:5-6

I just don’t understand. Did I not trust enough? Did I not listen enough? Because about 5 years ago, just after he died, just after my life seemed to be fitting into place, it shattered. A final horrible shatter. Causing aftershocks lasting until today.

I tried so hard to get it back on the right path. But it just seemed that the harder I tried, the harder others worked to take me down.

So then why the following statements in the Bible? Are they actually real?

Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart.”

Do NOT WORRY;

Matthew 6:33 “Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well”

Matthew 10:38 “whoever does not take up there cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds their life will lose it and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it”.

I gotta tell you-I am so confused. I don’t know if I did the right thing or not, but I lost the ability to have two most important things in my life under my roof a significant portion of the time and I feel like a complete and utter failure. Worse yet-I have struggled the last few days feeling like God failed me.

However, I want you to understand that you need to read to the end. This post will be happy. After all-life is full of ups and downs, right? And God never promised that our life would end up exactly how WE wanted. It will end up how HE wants it to end up.

These are the final instructions from Paul in 1 Thessalonians 16:

“Rejoice Always, 17Pray Continuously, 18Give Thanks In ALL CIRCUMSTANCES: for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”

Paul to the Philippians:

“Rejoice in the Lord Always. I will say it again: Rejoice. Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which trancends all understanding, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus”